We all have our moments of insecurities.
We become uncertain of our directions and decisions. Lose confidences in our strengths and become overly sensitive about our weaknesses. I am having that moment now. Not a huge one but sizable.
Started my new job and I have to say... I love it!!! The outward facing part is fun and filled with adrenaline... They call it business development - totally new to me, but which I have heard I am a natural. Quite surprising considering I do not feel comfortable approaching people with intention... I feel like an insurance agent! The redeeming factor may be that I am really passionate about what I talk about... hence I talk well.
Passion... a term I have not embraced for quite a while and high time I grab chunks and chunks of it... This new job allows me to merge my two passions - Design and setting up hotels.
Inward facing - I have to manage 20 odd people in a studio. How hard can that be?! Right?
To a certain extend, I can be quite wrong....
I have heard before that an office does not run by itself... and YES.. it does not!!! Damn! You need to motivate the staff, keep them busy, chart their learning and career path, balance the work load, manage office gossip, ensure quality work... its a whole pot of small little things but all interconnected and need to be managed... And more importantly, an office needs a leader.. and hey!!! Last heard, I am the leader...
Grow up Gal! Stop hiding and do something! I know what I can do, should do but I am just not doing it!!! One step may not make a world of difference but at least it is a step and it is better than not doing anything. Action Action Action Woman!! Control what you can control and for those that you can't, don't take it to heart! Hmmm.... sounds like what my bestest fren used to tell me all the time....
And hey, I should do just that!
Since the new year, I have met up with many individuals new and old. Not all encounters have been pleasant and good. Some people make me beam, they are so full of vitality and hope even with setbacks in their life. And that is because they find life too precious to be wasted on things they do not believe in and are willing to take a chance and make a change. These friends make me proud.
Hahahha... sure or not... dunno weather you are telling the truth or not! Hahahhahha but oh geee...YES you are right... I took a chance four years ago and four years later, I am still smiling.... Love you, my bui bui dear dear BBDD.
From your baby turtle (BBTT)
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